I suppose it has been awhile since I have discussed the goings on of my open marriage.
As I wrote about yesterday, TC and I are no more. At least for now. I really don’t know what the future will bring. So far, we have remained friends and even talked about normal life things yesterday. I am glad we are able to remain friends. At least for the time being.
You may have noticed I do not talk about Matt any more. That’s because there is nothing to talk about. After the first of December, he went silent. After having given him 3 opportunities prior to see me again, all of which he had an excuse not to, I finally took the hint. His silence was met with my own. It did come as a surprise though when I received a text from him at the beginning of this new year. Turns out, he’s had a lot of personal stuff going on which somewhat explains his silence with me. In any case, there’s been no talks to actually see each other again, and I am honestly ok with that. As much as I like him, and we had a nice time together, there was no passionate spark. He and I have only texted a few times since the new year. I think we are now just going to be casual friends.
I have a date tonight. It’s with a man who is married and also polyamorous. He is not local. In fact, he comes from the states. He is currently visiting this country because of work, and I will be seeing him tonight for a date. Depending on how the date goes, it could be more than just a dinner date. He contacted me a few weeks ago through OKC, looking to see if I’d be interested in meeting him during his very brief stay in my country. After reading his profile, I really couldn’t resist getting to know him better. We exchanged a few emails and that was enough for me to agree to a dinner date. It’s odd, because he doesn’t seem to be much of an emailer. I suppose it makes a little sense that he doesn’t want to know everything about me before meeting me or we’ll run out of things to talk about. I am looking forward to talking more in depth about the things we discussed over email, mostly to do about polyamory and our experiences. The old me would have blown him off for his lack of communication, but I’m cutting this guy some slack. I really like what he has had to say and I feel like we have a lot in common. I don’t expect this to go very far. Like I said, he’s from the states. There are many timezones and miles between us. I’m just going to take the evening for what it is, a nice evening out with a man that I may or may not find myself intimate with at the end of the evening. Beyond that, I will hold no expectations.
If you’re wondering where my husband is in all of this, you may have noticed he chooses to keep quiet about his interactions. He does have his own interactions and does enjoy the company of other women from time to time even if we aren’t writing/talking about it. I am very thankful to have him in my life. I can count on him when things go sour for me. Which, they seem to always go sour for me. *sigh*
With the recent debacle with TC, I am wondering if I should just steer clear of monogamous people altogether, regardless if they are single when I am involved with them. Even if it’s just friendship and sex, I can still get hurt. Things can still go bad with secrets and lies involved. But then, polyamorous people are no guarantee that things will be any better. I’ve not had much more luck in that area either. At least there seems to be a basic understanding if we are both polyamorous.
Back to the drawing board once again. I await my next adventure.
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