yin yang

I’ve been talking to MasterC today, I mean really, finally getting to exchange messages. This gets my wheels turning and thoughts start humming through my mind. The flood gates to my darkest fantasies are beginning to open again. I’m like an animal, rescued from near death, rehabilitated and now able to run free again. I hesitate at first, as the world I was taken away from, suddenly becomes mine again. Where do I start? Where do I go? What do I do? Slowly, the familiar comes back and I take one confident step after the other. 

I’m not a horoscope freak of any kind. I just happen to be labeled as Gemini. The Gemini is known to be one person with two sides. This is most definitely me. In my personal life I am responsible and professional, but also fun-loving and wild. In my intimate life I enjoy romance and kindness, but I also enjoy pain and deviance. 

My life is not complete, I am discovering, without the yin yang. 

For those unfamiliar with yin yang, it “is used to describe how polar opposites or seemingly contrary forces are interconnected and interdependent in the natural world, and how they give rise to each other in turn.”

“Yin is the black side with the white dot and is characterized as slow, soft, yielding, diffuse, cold, wet, and passive; and is associated with water, earth, the moon, femininity and nighttime.” My life with Sylvanus is my yin. With him, I have the fairy tale life. We found each other at our most lonely and “desperate for more” lives. Separated by miles and life forces, we managed to still come together. We fought our own battles, made the miles between us disappear and found ourselves in each other’s arms. Sylvanus is my knight in shining armor. He came into my life when I needed him the most. Ours is an incredible love story and continues to be as we journey farther into this life together. Sylvanus is the man I share romance with. He’s the man I have made a life with. He wines me and dines me and takes me around the world. 

I myself, personally, identify as being “yin”. I am slow, taking my time to properly assess things before moving forward. All my moves in life are carefully calculated. I am soft, not only because I am a woman, but because of the career I have chosen for myself and the love I have for others. I am yielding and passive, for I am submissive after all. I am happy and comfortable letting others lead and I follow. I do not wish for conflict and am flexible.

“Yang, by contrast, is the white side with the black dot and is fast, hard, solid, focused, hot, dry, and aggressive; and is associated with fire, sky, the sun, masculinity and daytime.” MasterC is, of course, my yang. He is yang. He’s fast and focused as a successful, yet still young, business man. He’s hard, solid and focused as my Master. His dominance is one I have never before encountered but always dreamed of and now it is mine to have for as long as he wishes me to be his slave. My life with MasterC is the yang side of my life. With him, my “happily ever after” takes on a whole new form. With him, my deepest, darkest and most fucked up desires come to surface. I don’t want to be wined and dined with MasterC. No, with him, I want him to take possession of me. I want him to strip me, cut away all my clothes, bind my wrists and ankles with cuffs, collar me and lead me into his dark and secret cellar. I want to be his prisoner for a weekend or more. I want to be kept in his cellar, locked away in a place that sees no light of day and behind cold steel bars. Up above me I can hear him as he walks around the house, my heart beating fast as I wonder when he will appear to me again. I will eat off of the floor, I will drink out of a bowl, I will even do my business in a corner, all to be his prisoner for a weekend. When he takes me out of my cage, securing me within the cellar, spread out for his use, I will happily take every strike of his implements. I will happily serve him, for this is what my dark and fucked up side desires. 

My life and I, we are yin yang. Each side has their own special meaning and stands alone, but together, they create me. They complete me. I am Mina, the girl with two lives who does not wish to live without one. This is my balance. I am in love with both yin and yang. 

 

 

© At Longings End 

*All information about yin yang was taken from here