giving myself to amorphous

Completely.

I have been fucked in the ass before… it happened 13 years ago, with the same person whom I gave my virginity to. I was young and naive then. I gave my ass to him because it was what he wanted. It did nothing to me. It was uncomfortable and I endured it for him. And as far as I can remember… he never did cum in my ass.

Later in life, maybe about 4 years ago, I encountered a lover who wanted to fuck me, but refused to because I was on my period. So he had the great idea to fuck me in the ass instead. I was of no state of mind and so his attempts failed. He and I have never actually fucked, in any sense of the word.

When Amorphous and I met, of course many topics of sex were discussed. One being anal. I told him I did not find pleasure in it and would prefer not to do it. He told me, it did not interest him. It was, afterall, fucking me in the ASS. The thought of putting his cock in my ass was not a turn on to him.

However, things change, as things will often do. As I found myself embracing my submission, I realized I wanted to give myself to Amorphous completely and that included my ass. I confessed this to him. That if he wanted it, it was his to have. I wanted him to. At that time, he told me it was still not something he was interested in…. but that soon changed as well.

He soon told me, he desired to take me. He desired to fuck me in the ass. To take all of me as my Dominant, as I will give all, as his submissive.

And so we began my anal training. I got a larger butt plug. Sometimes during my submissive sessions, Amorphous would lube me up and push my plug into me. I would pant and whimper. I’d hold it in as best as I could. My fingers gripping the sheets. Amorphous’s voice in my ear, soothing me, telling me I’m a good girl. Encouraging me to hold it. But I always let it go before he allowed it. I could hear the disappointment in his voice. “I can’t fuck your ass till you hold this plug.”

Last night, after spending our lunch hour engaging in “Twitter sex”, building up our foreplay, Amorphous and I went into the bedroom.He surprised me, by first giving me a good beating. My skin burned as it welted. Kneeling before him, I took his cock in my mouth and sucked him. I love feeling the heat of my welts as I suck his cock.

He tells me to “Get on the bed. On all fours. Facing away.”I get on the bed as I’m told. He’s not satisfied. “You’ve seen ‘Secretary‘, get in position.”

I do as I’m told. I hear him reaching for the lube. I feel him squirt some on his fingers and he begins lubing up my ass. Only, something is different. He is using much more than usual. I hear him squeeze more lube out, but this time I hear him stroking his cock. Immediately I’m thinking… “this is it!”

“I am going to fuck you in the ass.”

I feel him press the head of his cock against my asshole. He pushes in slowly. My body rejects this new sensation. I tighten up as he pushes forward. My eyes get shut tight, my fingers fist the sheets, I am whimpering and squirming. “No I can’t do this.. I can’t.” I am disappointed that I can’t give Amorphous what he wants.. it’s too much… I’m too uncomfortable, I’m going to have to ask him to pull …

wait

what is this?

Suddenly, as he pushes in a little more and holds place, the discomfort evaporates. He holds himself still. Allowing my body to adjust. I feel his cock inside my ass and my body begins to relax. I push back into him just a little, and that feels even better…

And this is where the hottest part of the evening occurs… feeling his cock in my ass, I slowly push myself into him. His cock moving deeper into my ass. Until finally I grunt in pleasure at the feel of his skin against my backside, knowing I have taken him in completely.

He begins rocking back and forth, not moving much within me, allowing my body to adjust. I am enjoying it. Inside my mind is saying, “I am taking it. I’m doing it!” Yes, I’m rather proud of myself.

Amorphous begins to get a bit braver with me and starts thrusting more. He moves his cock farther along. Picks up the pace just a little.

As for me, I am loving it. Loving what he is doing to my mind. Loving what he is doing to my body. My mouth breaks free and speaks once more… the filth comes pouring out, “Your fucking me in the ass baby. You like fucking me in the ass? I want you to cum in my ass!”

He keeps his pace. I want him to cum so badly. I am panting and moaning. It feels good to feel his cock stimulating that part of my body.

He slows down… and begins pulling out more… finally my body can’t handle it anymore… and I have to push him out.

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We collapse on the bed together, happy with our “first time”. Next time, will be even better. Amorphous won’t have to worry about how I’m doing so much. I just take great satisfaction in knowing I can take him in the ass and I can find it pleasurable.